I just talked to my best friend again.  The skiiiiiiiinney one....  It's NOT FAIR!!!!!!!  If I could go back to cocaine I'd be that thin again too...  I know I can't do that though....  Now I'm addicted to food instead and DAMNIT!!!!!!  I eat a bunch of food and that's still "good" for me because I usually binge all the time.  I'm like "I ate like a normal person today go me!"  I guess that's better than having 2 million calories by lunch time....  I'm still post-op so I can't exercise or my stitches will hurt like hell.  I feel like a cow....especially when I talk to ms. skinny teeny tiny little friend.